DAY 21. 3rd WEIGH IN!!

Well went to my weigh in last night and I've lost 3lb! At first I was a little disappointed because I was hoping for a little more but 3lb is a good amount to loose. I'm going to up my exercise this week and see if I can loose a couple of lbs more than that this week.

My BF is going to Scotland on Sunday for a few days to visit his family and friends he hasn't been home since January so hes missing them a bit. usually i would go with him, his family are lovely and I've got my own friends up there now as well but I really don't think I could go up there and not eat! The food up there is soooo nice and fresh and his mum is a fantastic cook so it would be really hard. Also I don't really want them to know what I'm doing. Ive got time booked off work around the August bank holiday so we'll both be going then and hopefully I should be slim and then they'll all get a shock, They know how much i love my food!

Ive been feeling really down and emotional the last few days, Ive come so close to eating a few times. I don't know what changed but I'm feeling positive today.
Hope your all doing OK!xx

DAY 16-19

Sorry I've not posted in the last few days its been quite busy. I'm still sticking to LL and haven't cheated yet although god has it been tempting!!
I went to the gym on Saturday morning with my mum and sis, it was nice and quite which is how i like it because I can take my time on the weights and floor exercises. Felt really motivated when I came out but it didn't last long, i didn't have anything planned for the rest of the day so just sat about dwelling on the fact that I couldn't eat.. i was having a poor me day!! Luckily my sis phoned and invited me over to hers so I spend the night going over her plans and ideas for her wedding which is in Sept'08 so I've got plenty of time to slim down for my bridesmaid dress, there is no way I'm going to be the fat one!! the other bridesmaids are all about a sizes 6-10!! it turned out to be a good night and we had a laugh.

On Sunday my mum, sister and me went to Hampton court Palace golf course to look at their club house for the wedding reception, we have been to look at so many different places but this was definitely the nicest and my sis agreed because shes put 2 different dates on hold until she sorts out the church.
After that we went home and my other sister came up and they all had sausage and mash for dinner.. I was sooooo jealous but I just sat there and had my Choc shake. Later in the evening my Brother and sister in law came up with my nephew i hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks, its amazing how much babies change and so quickly. So while they sat eating cheese, crackers and crisps I just showered hugs on my baby nephew and fed him. It does make me a bit broody seeing him.. my BF would freak if he knew that!! hee hee.

Went to work yesterday and did quite a bit, didn't spend much time on the Net at all which isn't like me at all! I was supposed to go to an Aerobics class last night but decided to go to the gym instead. i did basically the same as I did on Saturday but it took me a lot longer because it was so busy in there and you have to Que to use anything.
I've got my pop in tonight but I'm not going to go, I'm OK with my flavors of food pack and after last week I think its best if i just get weighed once a week.
Its Lunch time now so I'm going to go and have a choc shake. Hope your all doing well.xx

DAY 14-15

Well went to my weigh in last night and I've lost 5lb this week. Maybe this sounds really stupid but I was so gutted! Ordinary 5lb off in 1 week would make me ecstatic and is a fantastic amount to loose in just 1 week but because id lost 6lb when I went to my pop in on Tuesday I was hoping to have lost up to 8lb by my weigh in last night so to have put on 1lb was a real disappointment. I just cant understand what went wrong and I cant help but feel like picking up a slice of toast or a plate of chips! yum yum!!!

BUT.... I'm not going to, I've thought about the bigger picture and I've lost 15lb in 2 weeks so how can I moan. I'm going to the gym tomorrow and I've got an Aerobics class planned for Monday, I'm going to stick to the plan and keep on loosing! and I'm going to try and stay positive.

Thought I'd put some photos on here to look back on and remember what I looked like fat! The baby is my 6 week old nephew.xx

DAY13

Another day another dollar! I did manage to drag myself to work yesterday.. just about, I think once I've had a couple of days off its hard to go back even if i was off sick I kinda got used to lounging about and not really doing much. It was OK once I got there its just getting there that I found hard.
It was quite an eventful day actually, There's a 75 year old woman who works part time in my office she so very sweet but a real worrier. Shes been having a few problems with her pace maker, getting fluttering. She collapsed yesterday morning at her desk, she didn't black out but she couldn't hold her self up or even talk. We called the ambulance which took about 10min to come and as I work in a hospital I think that's pretty disgusting. Ive just heard now that shes been discharged and that shes got to go to her GP today for more tests.. I'm sure she'll be OK, as she says shes a tough old bird.
My day was otherwise uneventful had a relaxing evening in the bath and caught up with my soaps.
Ive got my weigh in tonight so I'll let you know how I do, fingers crossed for 8lb.x

DAY 12

Well didn't make it into work again today felt even worse than yesterday when I woke up, definitely going in tomorrow! I know I said that yesterday but I really really mean it this time!
Went to my pop in today and I've lost 6lb this week so far so I'm really happy with that and hoping to loose another 2lb to make it 8lb by my meeting on Thursday, wont be disappointed if I don't though as I was only expecting to loose a couple of lbs this week because of my TOTM.
One of the girls that started last Thursday was at the pop in and when I walked in I immediately asked her how she was doing and she burst out crying.. she had only lost 1lb! I felt terrible, I felt so sorry for her she was so disheartened after sticking to the plan all week and then to only loose that. Heather our councillor said that it maybe due to her not drinking enough water. I really hope she sticks to it but I think if that were me on my first week Id feel crap and want to eat eat eat!!
I'm going to go to bed now otherwise I wont get up for work in the morning.xx

DAY 11

Woke up this morning with a splitting headache felt like I had been punched about the head a few times so I didn't go to work. Feeling a lot better so I'm definitely going in tomorrow. I was planning on making another trip to the gym this evening but as I've been in all day and haven't even got dressed I've given it a miss. Just had my 3rd food pack of the day a chocolate shake and it was lovely.. definitely my fave. I've tried all the bars now as well and I was so disappointed! The Nut crunch i didn't even think was edible, the toffee bar I didn't really like it was far to sweet. The fruit and the lemon I could just about eat but not regularly. I've got my pop in tomorrow so I'm going to change some bars for chocolate shakes, I'm exited to see what I've lost so far as well.xx

DAY 9-10

Had a really good couple of days. I seem to be waking up really early every morning since starting LL which is really weird as I usually love love love my lie ins on a weekend. so yesterday when I woke up I thought Id be productive and go to the gym, I was a bit wary as I wasn't sure what id be able to do because of the limited calorie intake but my god you should have seen me go I was in there for about 90min and I worked my soon to little butt off!! Felt really good and motivated for the rest of the day.
Today I've been looking on the net all day at clothes I'm going to get, its really weird because I've never bothered looking at clothes before, its always been a bit of a reminder that I'm to fat and that even if i wanted to they don't do my size. I know I've got a way to go but I'm feeling so positive for the first time ever I'm just so exited about how my life is going to change now I'm doing this. My bf has told me that hes going to treat me to a 2week holiday in September.. any where I want to go!! What an incentive! hes been a star the last 10 days but I think hes finding my bad breath a bit to much!! that's one of the worst things for me.. I keep brushing my teeth and spraying my gold spot but nothing seems to keep it fresh for very long.
Its my TOTM so I'm a bit worried about the weight in on Thursday.. hope I still loose.xx

DAY 8

Had a really busy day at work today and my boyfriend was working tonight so I ended up falling to sleep when he went to work at 6pm so missed my 3rd food pack, when I woke up at 8pm I had a bar but I felt really ruff and I still do now. Just made a chocolate muffin with my food pack and it was yummy! Its really nice to have some more variety. Going to sleep now(again) I'm feeling unusually tired today but I suppose that's to be expected at first. I'm really glad I started doing this blog, its like a community and the support and ideas are fantastic.x

DAY 7 - WEIGH DAY!

I went for my first big weigh in last night and in my first week Ive lost 10lb!!!
I cant even begin to explain how I'm feeling at the moment, with any other diet it would take me weeks to loose that.
I can have the bars and drink flavouring now as well which is good, because I'm really missing chewing but I'm not going to get the drink flavouring yet as I quite like having the plain water at the min, think its because it feels really healthy! Going to have my first bar later today.. really looking forward to it (sad or what).
Going to try some new recipes with my food packs, as suggested by a couple of people, I'll let you know how I get on.x

DAY 6

9th May
Had a bad day today. Felt really tiered all day and had a dull headache, which wasn't helped by being at work and staring at a computer screen all day. Today was the first day i really felt like eating something, I helped my boyfriend make some tuna and onion pittas, i was OK when i was making them but the smell of them after was so lovely i just wanted to take a bite.. but I didn't and as I felt so low today I'm quite proud of myself. I think because I had lost 8lb already at my pop in that that had kept me at it. That's the great thing with LL the fast weight loss is such a great incentive to keep at it. Ive got my meeting and the weigh in tonight which I'm really looking forward to.. I hope the scales are kind to me. tried the caramel shake tonight and didn't like it at all, I'm not really a fan of caramel any way and it really is very strong and sweet. I think one of things i'm finding really hard is not chewing anything, can't wait to get the bars this week.. hope i like them.x

DAYS 1 -5

May 8th.
Well this is my first ever blog and i don't really know where to start!
I started the Lighter Life program 6 days ago and before I started it I read a few blogs which i found really helpful and inspiring so I though I'd start my own blog, not only to help others but to mainly help my self and give me something to look back on and keep me going. I did plan on starting my blog on day 1 but haven't gotten round to it till now so I'll fill you in now about the last few days.

There are 4 other women in my group at the moment but I'm sure more will join over the next 2 weeks. My counselor Heather is Lovely, she made me feel so comfortable and I left my first meeting raring to go!! On your first meeting you choose your food packs for the week, watch a DVD, get your photo taken and most importantly you get weighed and measured. Not sure if I want to see this in writing but my measurements were...

Bust: 48inches
Waist: 43inches
Hips: 53inches

I was so shocked and I suppose a little embarrassed, but that was nothing compared to being weighed. I weighted a whopping 16st6lbs!!! All I could think was how the hell have I got to this! I'm not going to dwell on it though I've started LL now I can only move forward and down.

Day 1 I was really motivated, I had work and I start at 7am so I took a Strawberry shake and a Veg soup, oh and of course a lot of water. The Strawberry shake wasn't as nice as I had expected but palatable. The veg soup wasn't as nice as I had expected either I had to drink it really fast. That night I felt really ill.. tiered, headaches, and a little sick. I had 1/2 a banana shake which wasn't to bad but was quite strong tasting. Over the next 2 days I continued to feel really ill and had numerous trips to the loo due to the amount of water I'm drinking, drinking the 4litres of water is actually much easier than I imagined and Ive done it every day except the the first 2 when I was really ill.

The food packs aren't as bad as I had thought they would be, I'm a bit disappointed with the soups i don't like any of them, i didn't even manage to keep the Chicken down and struggled with the Veg, Thai chili and Mushroom. The shakes on the other hand are quite nice. The Raspberry, Vanilla and Chocolate are my faves.

Its the end of day 5 now and I'm feeling much better, still getting some dull headaches but not feeling sick anymore. Went for my mid week pop in this evening to change my food packs you can also get weighted if you need some motivation or a bit of a boost. I had said all week that I wasn't going to get weighted until Thursday (my official weigh in and meeting) but i was finding it difficult today so I decided to step on the scales and boy was I pleased with what I saw, I've already lost 8lb this week!!! Its amazing I cant wait until my meeting to see what my final weight loss for the week is!